Current location:	spearfishing
Current mood:	awesome
Current music:	The Combat Junkies
Entry tags:	allergies, b'awwwwww, bacon, bideo gaems, bubble teas ftw, butts, chacha, compiz is sexy, do not use butter, fagbattles, feminism, glasses, grandma, greggles, i need to invest in a backbone, linux, politix, sick, smoking too much cigarettes, ubuntu, windows

I need to clean out my keyboard
Let's see. Where did I leave off. I don't intentionally update, like, twice a month. It just happens that way. Then all my entries become tl;dr. Not that it really matters, I mostly update for me. But, whatever. I'd like to... update more. I just suck. Anyway! Onward!

Jane, who was probably one of my first friends at jpusa came to stay for a few weeks for Emily and Jeremy's wedding. We got to hang out a few times. We went out for coffee and went to try and find packs of raccoons, which are surprisingly common around the lake. We were successful and then sat the lake and smoked too many cigarettes. It was perfect, really. We caught up and stuff. I miss her already.

Dylan and I got into a really frustrating conversation at one point. It was just before I had to get up early for wedding work too, I was so angry and bitter. It was just... everything I said came out wrong. In retrospect, I understand it all... it was just.. obnoxious. It sucks when what you're trying to say gets covered up by the poor wording.

Emily and Jeremy's wedding made me cry like a bitch. Its not even like I know either of them all that well. I just cry at weddings, I guess. This whole breakup thing has turned me into more of a romantic. I don't think thats good or bad, it just is what it is. I just wanna meet someone wonderful and fabulous and such. In due time.

I played Soul Caliber 4. You think I'd be more excited about it since I was so into 3. But, I wasn't. It just isn't the same without Viktor and Tim and fagbattles™. Also, Talim, who has tiny A-cup tits, has wayyy too much jiggle. I hate male programmers sometimes.

Okay, for an entire week, I was sick. At first I thought it was allergies, but then I was still sick. So then I stopped taking my allergy meds, and then I got even WORSE. It turned out it was both, and I was miserable for the entire week. I finally got some medicine for some Zyrtek, which hasn't really gotten into my body yet. The first time I took it I hallucinated and felt like garbage, but my body's starting to get used to it. I'm thankful I only have bad allergies for a month, but it makes me so MISERABLE. I cant stop sneezing and/or blowing my nose. Its also super hot in my room because the fans kick up the pollen and makes it worse. I'm sorry Alana ;-;

I finally moved my room. I got it all painted and lovely. Perhaps I'll take crappy quality webcam pictures at some point. We still haven't gotten a loveseat. I have my eyes on the gray one in the 3rd floor living room. But I doubt Ami would let me take it. She hasn't even taken the time to really meet with me, and I've kind of needed her, because I've been dealing with all sorts of emotions regarding Dylan.

My grandma isn't doing the best. She shattered her shoulder on the rocking chair when she fell out of bed. I feel like the doctors aren't doing a lot, and that might be because of her already deteriorating health. So please, if you pray, please pray for my grandma. I'm so worried about her. I don't want her in pain and I need her.

I went with Kos, Sara, Tyler and his mom to chinatown and got some delicious bubble teas. I love red bean paste.

Then, the next day, I had some HUD grant training and I went to chinatown again with Sue. I love Sue a lot. She's like the mom I never really got and she's got a lot of good advice for me. I think ultimately we have a lot in common. I'm really grateful I got the job I did because I've met some of the most amazing people I probably never would have taken the time to get to know.

I ended up getting new glasses the other day. I had to choose from the poor people frames. They were all horrendously outdated and hideous. I cried. I'm sure they thought I was a spoiled brat. But I can't live without glasses. I'm just wearing my old glasses. They have no personality. They just... they aren't me at all! Sometimes I wear them if I'm playing video games or watching movies and I don't want scratches impeding my view.

Max and Melissa got engaged. I'm remarkably jealous. I used to dislike the idea of them together, but Melissa worked her ass off and got a lot healthier. Now they're great for each other. I'm really excited about it. I can only hope to get so lucky. Max is an amazing guy and he put up with a lot of shit and in the end, it was worth it. I can only hope Dylan could go through such a remarkable transformation that would be beneficial in the end.

My playlist just played the Mother2 drug store music, and directly afterward the Mother version. 10K+ songs on random. What are the odds!? :D

In politics-land, I don't like Biden, but I know its a good compliment to the campaign. I would have been happier with Richardson, but I'll let it slide. My dream would have been Kucinich, but lord knows that wouldn't have happened. He needs to focus on impeaching the shit out of bush anyway <3.

So, I got my hard drive in the mail a week ago. I spent all last weekend tweaking it all. My video card and everything else ran in ubuntu flawlessly. Mostly because I knew how to set it all up the first time anyway. Compiz is running and its sexy as hell. SCREENCAPS! (click the urls for full resolution action!)


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The menu bars are transparent :>



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When I drag an application it goes transparent too :D


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Oh look. Gimmicks!


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Moar gimmicks. ITS RAINING :O


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and my damn cube.

Sadly, I had to fight more with windows. I just couldn't find the right drivers for stuff. Mostly, I just wrestled with my webcam. Thank god I remembered the driver name. I bookmarked the page so the next time I have to reinstall windows, I'll know where to look.

After I got everything going, I started playing Final Fantasy 7 again. I started playing it a year ago, but stopped it. I've only beaten it once, and that was when I was 12. My room was still upstairs and all I did was listen to MxPx and play that damn game. Ive only been playing it for 5ish days and I've already clocked 20+ hours. Aeris died last night. I was indifferent, although I felt sadder than I did last time. Last time I could have cared less. At least this time I got all my good materia off the dumb bitch. Running off like that. Serves her right.

I went to the beach with Allyson last weekend too. The waves were insane and kept knocking my swimsuit top (that would be, my bra) off. lol. I couldn't care less, really. But, it was super fun. After we swam we ate cookies, read game informer, smoked cigarettes and sat in the sun. It was grand. After that, we grilled burgers and I closed the evening playing way too much Final Fantasy 7 again.

We got a huge donation of vegan sesame-miso soup. That shit sucked. It had absolutely no flavor, as per most vegan food. I should of just put some bacon up in there.

I confronted Ami a few nights ago because she planned this big grill out, had room in the car, and didn't even invite me. On top of the fact she blew me off a few days ago. It just hurt. Of course she said I never call, which is the hugest pile of bullshit I have EVER heard. We had a meeting the day after to clarify things. The meeting was like "sorry I didnt invite you. Do you feel like people don't like hanging out with you? Well here's why..." I'm sure it was purely logical from her stance, but it fucking hurt. I just sat there and took it. But Christ, what made her think that if I feel left out of a lot of things, this would be a good talk to have. Unfortunately, I'm not very good for standing up for myself. Ami said she'd try to start including me. That's nice. I'm sort of afraid of her now, and being afraid of your mentor is kinda weird.

At work, I got back all the jobs I lost over the summer. Mostly report writing and the mealsheet grant that we do. I don't mind, but that just means less time to ChaCha and/or read comics.

Ever since my pay got docked to 10 cents, I just don't have the heart to ChaCha. I'm sure I'll want/need money again soon, but until then, I just don't care. I've done, like, 10 questions in two weeks. I didn't think the pay cut would effect me, but it totally did.

Palin is a laughable choice for McCain. I never heard of her, but it didn't take long for me to find out the woman was batshit insane. Mostly for suing Alaska over the polar bears inhibiting her from drilling even MORE oil. The idea of a woman with nil experience and a hunger from oil a heart attack away from the presidency is TERRIFYING. But, with such a foolish choice, McCain is sure to lose. If he wins, I'll be convinced elections are rigged. (but Palin is nerdy looking/cute >.>) He's not going to get any women/feminists. Although, I've been feeling like the worst feminist ever. You think I'd support more female candidates, but I don't. I really don't like Hillary. Never did. Never will. Oh well. If I ran for president, I'd vote for me, and I'm a woman. Oh ate.

Pat came over and we made gooey butter cake with a bunch of girls and Tyler. One of the recipes was this:



...wat?

I've been talking to Dylan still. Nothing's really been resolved, and I'm confused but trying to put as little emotion into it as possible. I'd elaborate, but I don't reallyfeel liek it.

I'm going to milwaukee today for Greg's birthday. I'm stoked. I need to call Joe Devine. I need to get my shit together.And this entry has taken my long enough. Don't worry, I won't hold it against you if you only skimmed it.