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[Oct. 23rd, 2024|12:13 am] |
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This journal is about 75% "Friends Only".
I've gotten in plenty of trouble for things I've said.
You never know who's reading, you know?
Comment, or just add me, and I'll probably add you back.
Unless you speak a language I don't understand. Sorry, Ruskies. |
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| smell ya later, lame county |
[May. 5th, 2012|01:02 pm] |
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still alive.
in oklahoma now. i was in missouri. and before that i was on a farm in southern illinois. still slowwwwly making my way down to austin. but, i'm enjoying life. and i havent been happy in a long time, so i'll soak it in while i can. |
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[Mar. 15th, 2012|04:24 pm] |
i recently learned that nothing nice to say has been updating again. old news, i know. but this comic made me lol forever.
ruby soho came up on my playlist and i decided everyone else needs to lol forever too. |
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| statistics! again! |
[Mar. 8th, 2012|11:53 pm] |
Do you remember I made a post last year about how many people on my friends list had abandoned their journals. Well, I was feeling incredibly antisocial today and decided to revamp my statistics for this year. 93 out of 316 are active. For comparison's sake, last year was 129 of 328 active. Last year 65% of my FL was "dead". This year 70% is "dead". How interesting.
I think last time I said "omg ppl need 2 update their journals". But I won't do it this time. I'm just interested in how quickly the medium is dying out. A lot of people who had posted in the last year had done so only once in this year (3-2011 to 3-2012).
Anyone else ever do anything like this? Come up with similar numbers? I bet you next year it'll be 75%.
I've been meaning to update about what's really been going on with myself but I can't really muster up the emotion to do it. |
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| at least i learned how to turn off the webcam flash so my pix arent super blue anymore |
[Mar. 4th, 2012|10:36 pm] |
I still have a lot to type about, BUT i just finished this painting. I wanted to post it to facebook, but the friend I'm giving it to hasn't seen it yet. So, you guys can see it first. If you want to critique please be gentle.
and a few closer up so you can see the detail/color a little better. sorry all i have is a webcam.
i am proud of the hand.
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[Feb. 19th, 2012|12:13 am] |
So, what active communities does anybody hang out in? I'm not a huge fandom person, but I'm tired of an inactive friends' page.
I'd say the only active community I still really like is ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif?v=92.1) randompictures. I am open to any suggestions, ...except for maybe ONTD. I'm currently test driving some mlp communities. I'll see which one I'mma keep in a few weeks. Maybe them all! Who knows!
In other news I bought a lighter that had dolphins in space on it today. its pretty fabulous. my gay boyfriend who is so gay he likes dolphins likes it too. |
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[Jan. 26th, 2012|01:17 am] |
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Its funny what I post on facebook and what I post on livejournal. I can't talk about any of my friends on facebook since they'll see it all. And I hate my personal life being on FB. But I post all the piddly asinine bullshit on my facebook. idk why. convenience, i suppose. Also: more people. At any rate, without further ado-
Shit I Over-hear my boyfriend's friends say:
Donny: gonna blast 'em to ... bolivia.... what word am i thinking of?
Mike: Oblivion?
Donny: yeah, bolivia is a state right
Mike: its a mexican country
Donny: Brazil?
Mike: No.
Me: its a south american country.
Mike: I call it mexican
Donny: its called spanish because all those people came from Spain.
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Donny asks me to build him a website for his ferret. I ask him why doesn't he use tumblr, blogger, or facebook since those are free and he knows how to use them.
Donny: it costs money to have a website!?
That is all. g'nite lj. |
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| And not a single fuck was given that day. |
[Dec. 14th, 2011|07:13 pm] |
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work didn't give me hours. AGAIN. this is a month I have not been woking now.
in anticipation of being laid off and moving to someplace that DOESNT FREAKING SUCK, I am dying my hair.
I'll have the pictures up when I am done. Right now I am burning my scalp. It feels so good to change my hair colour.
I've never bleached hair this long before. Yet alone virgin hair that is this long. I can't believe i didnt dye my hair for, like, 6 months. It was fun while it lasted. At least it's healthy enough to go through all the processes. Maybe I'll grow my hair out again in a few years.
life's been so sad and boring- especially without the job. trying to keep my chin up. mostly, i just look forward to moving...
edit: i shoulda waited at least a day inbetween processes. it woulda worked better. but im so impatient. i don't want in-between hair. i want awesome hair. regardless, i think my hair will be light enough for pink... |
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| All the hype money can buy |
[Nov. 18th, 2011|08:28 pm] |
So, you guys hear the news? There's some big Five Iron announcement coming up. 11/22/11. Exactly 10 years after they broke up. They always said if there ever was a reunion tour, they'd do it after they've been broken up. I dunno why 10 years was such a mile marker. It's even in the song "See the Flames Begin to Crawl- "...ten years from now you won't know my name...". lol. Guess I still know your name, Reese Roper. At any rate, there's this scavenger hunt. And all this madness. IT IS SO BLOODY EXCITING. I am 100% serious. IF they are going on some kind of reunion tour, I am giving up everything (i hate it all right now anyway) and following them around as if they were the grateful dead. Oh em gee. Favorite band from the dead.... zombie brad... I've been reading pretty far into this stuff. I've also seen the FIF dvd, like, 100 times.
In other news, job is job. its the only life i have. if i dont work, i just sit online all day. i keep trying to scheme up some friends. no dice. oh well. chris wants to leave more and more. i'm with him. i really, really hope five iron goes on tour. it'll be perfect. even if its not fif, we'll go someplace with more people. someplace we don't need a car. someplace I'll be HAPPY. I work every day till wednesday. It beats sitting at home playing flash games on kongregate and reading reddit and checking lj. Still... you know... i just want friends. bills are piling up, but we're getting a hold of them. we were idenity thefted out of 6k, but it might be coming back. i still cry about grandma and grandpa. life is hard.
if fif got back together itd be the best news i'd hear in 4 months. 4 miserable ass months.
so, i'm keepin my fingers crossed. i still regret not going to their last show in denver. i pretty much broke up with caleb over backing out on that saying it was "gods will" or some crap like that. but, it was meant to be, i guess. but i remember telling jeff the girl i'd see her in denver in a few days and i still regret it. i was supposed to be there. i had the money. i had the car. i had the tickets. i just needed a companion. you know. being 17 and all.
clearly, touring the us following five iron would rectify that 10-fold. also, they're the best evar live. also, also, i really would like it. but i feel i'm getting ahead of myself. who knows if they're even having a reunion tour or not.
i STILL worry its a free can of pork n beans to anyone who is still a fan... hahaha
its fun anyway. at any rate, i guess thats all i have to say. love you guys. |
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| This year took so much away and won't give it back. |
[Nov. 1st, 2011|12:33 am] |
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Sadly, my grandma passed away two days ago. I've been desperately trying to ignore it for the past few days, which is why I haven't written about it yet. I wanted to put off the emotions as much as I could.
As we were driving up on saturday to go see my lovely grandma, she passed away. She decided to leave as soon as my Aunt Cathe told her we were on our way. Perhaps its what she needed to hear. It still depresses me greatly.
There was an interesting situation that morning though. I talked to my aunt and she was just crying. She was so tired of watching grandma die. She wanted her to be with Grandpa. It was too hard. And I thought about how grandma WANTED to die. And she was so ready and wanting to go. I only wanted her to stay because I felt there was so much more wisdom to get from her before she left. But did I want her to suffer? Hell no. Letting go. Letting go. I've learned that the most this year.
I've been weird. I never put off my emotions "till later" or whatever. But I've mostly just been occupying my mind and not trying to think about it. But when I do it comes in weird bouts. Chris has been very sad about his dad as well. It was his birthday earlier this month and halloween was very fun and special in his family. He's been a wreck. I've been a wreck. But at the end of it, we apologise and hold each other and I'm so glad he's been there for me.
Unfortunately, Chris is really fucking sad and needs a day to himself. So he went home for the day. But I wish oh I wish I could be at the very least sleeping next to him. But, he can be sad and figure his emotions out before he can be there for me at my grandmas funeral on thursday. still, its so hard not having him here right now next to me. I know it's what he needs to do though. having him around through all this has been so helpful. an unlimited supply of love and hugs and cuddles is what i need right now.
I wish she wasn't gone. I wish she could... maybe not lived forever... but lived longer. But i expected it. They were so in love, grandma and grandpa. I figured with one gone, the other would follow as quickly as possible. They were truly the greatest testament of 'true love' i have ever seen. Still, i miss her. i love her. She loved me so deeply and unconditionally. i miss her. i miss her so much. i wish i could have talked to her more in her last months. i tried. i tried. i tried. i wish to be as sweet, kind, and loving as she was. to everyone i meet.
im gonna be a wreck at the funeral. /sigh. not excited about it. i dont want her to go. but she is gone. she is way happier and reunited with her sisters. her son. her lover. so it goes. |
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